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Stupid Things I Do

2 Aug

I can’t even count the amount of stupid things I do in a day. And please know, I don’t think I’m stupid I just do some bone-headed things sometimes. For example, I decided to go for a run at 4:50pm today, which happens to be the hottest part of the day. I’m not sure exactly what the temp was but I heard it felt about 77 degrees. Now for all you Midwesterners and East Coasters, I know this is nothing for you but I cannot handle heat. When I went back to Minnesota in July one summer I got heat rash all over my chest and neck, and I had to stay in the shade and wear long sleeves for the rest of the vacation. Even when I lived there I didn’t like the heat. I got heat exhaustion at a soccer game once in middle school when everyone else was fine.

So Edie and I set off to run on black top (more heat) on farms roads (no shade) for four miles. Of course, I decided to take a new route that just happened to have a large hill.

Okay, it looked a lot bigger when I was there

The whole time I was worried about the pup (who is black). She was panting up a storm. I even stopped half way through and squirted some water at her mouth, but she just ended up getting mad at me and scared of the water bottle. I almost had to drag her back home. At least the view coming back was worth it.

You might be able to see the mountains in the background; gorgeous!

Edie and I both passed out in the shade in the yard when we got back. It’s so nice (after YEARS of apartment living) to be able to lay on your own grass.

When the Hub got home we made a well deserved dinner. This morning I had the other half of my Mango Coconut Smoothie and a piece of the Clean Eating Banana Bread. Snacks were Planters Energy Mix and yogurt with blueberries and Erin’s PB granola. And lunch, ah lunch; because I left early I didn’t eat the shrimp salad. Instead I had half of a Clif Builder Bar before the run and half after. Needless to say, I was starving by dinner time. This is where stupid thing #2 came in. Because I was so hungry I completely devoured my meal (probably without breathing) in about 15 minutes. Now I have a gigantic mad food baby in my tummy.

Have you tried Alexia’s Chipotle Sweet Potato Fries? Because if you haven’t I should come over and smack you upside the head. They are THE BEST fries ever, hands down. Course, if you give me anything with chitpotle on it I would eat it. Turkey burgers with low-fat cheddar and a spinach salad rounded out the meal.

And then there was stupid thing #3. I needed more water because of the chipotle, and I realized the straw in my Nathan’s water bottle is broken. Luckily it came with extra….which are located…..somewhere. Don’t you think the logical spot would be with the water bottles in the kitchen? Nope, not there. The silverware drawer? Heck no! What about the utensil drawer? Obviously not. How about anywhere in the kitchen? Well that is just preposterous! As of this posting, the straws are still at large….

I claim that was it for stupid things, but I know the husband would like to add #4. I went shopping after work at TJ Maxx and scored some great stuff. I needed a dress for our housewarming/wedding reception at our house in September, and the hub didn’t think this was a necessity. As any sensible woman would argue, you don’t want to wear a dress everyone has seen at your reception! And my wedding dress is a little too fancy for a housewarming. I needed something chic, something that could be worn again, and something that would be slightly dressier because I need to be fancier than the guests (hello, my our reception!). Thank you Calvin Klein.

I bought the cutest blue Calvin Klein dress, two work shirts (to replace the two that hit the dust last week), and a pair of leggings. The dress was $50, shirts were $14.99 each, and the leggings were $5. Since the leggings were not “necessary” I have to pay for those with fun money, and I told the Hub I would split the difference with him on the dress. This made him content (I would say happy but that would not be the truth).

Well, I am off to do smart things now, like watch HGTV before bed. Until tomorrow, when I will post a new smoothie recipe and give you my thoughts on the Jari Love video I checked out from the library. 🙂

New Smoothie Recipe and Other Musings

1 Aug

The past two mornings I haven’t wanted to get out of bed. Now, I know people say that, but I literally did not want to leave the house. I was so sad, anxious, and crabby that I felt the world would be a better place if I just stayed in. Why? That is a very good question, and I do not have the answer. The only answer I have is that I have major depression. Now before I get into the nitty gritty, I’ll tell you why I decided to blog about my illness. I’ve read a couple posts from my favorite bloggers that went over similar topics, especially one from Hungry Runner Girl. She wrote a great post about how she tries to be happy and positive all the time for other people but she can only do so much. Been there, done that.

I have had anxiety and depression since I was a young child. There were times I would tell my mom I wanted to die when I was only five years old. I told her I wanted to go home to Jesus. I can’t even imagine what my poor mother thought. I wasn’t diagnosed with anxiety issues until high school when I began acting out at home. I punched through the dining room window, and I cut myself with a knife. I went to therapy but wasn’t on any medication. In my sophomore year in college I became very depressed. I didn’t go to classes and received the worst grades I’ve ever had. The second semester I laid some pills out on my desk. Instead of taking them, I called for help. I was hospitalized for one night and released into the care of my parents (who are THE best parents in the world). I had to drop out of school that semester and my roommates asked me to move out, people who I thought were my friends, because they didn’t want to feel responsible for me.

Those were not good times. I’ve been on Celexa since then and have my ups and downs. I want to get off my anti-depressants someday but I am also aware that this may not happen. This illness runs in both sides of my family, with several people committing suicide on my dad’s side.

At work this morning I had a breakdown. I had my moment where I cried in the bathroom. People were wondering why I was sad. There was a comment, “She has a brand new house, new husband, and so many things going for her.” Let me settle this, not once have I wanted someone to feel bad for me. I want people to try to understand me. I know that I am very blessed and I am thankful for that everyday. The thing about depression is it’s a disease. I don’t know why I feel sad sometimes, or why I feel worthless, I just do. A majority of the time I can talk myself out of it, but I have my moments. I can’t be happy all the time. There are times where my raw emotions will take over.

This is another reason I need to exercise. When I exercise I feel like there is a strong possibility that I will be able to go off my medication. And I have made long strides since the day I was hospitalized. But this is something that will always be with me.

On a more cheerful note, I was greeted by my loving hub and happy pup when I got home which helped ease the heaviness on my chest. And I have a new smoothie recipe!

Mango Coconut Smoothie

1/2 cup frozen mango chunks

1/2 frozen banana

1 scoop vanilla protein powder

1 cup coconut water

1/2 cup soy milk

1/2 tablespoon flax meal

1 handful spinach

Put all in the blender and let ‘er rip! I drink half and leave the other half in the freezer until the next day.

For breaky, I had the smoothie and a piece of my Clean Eating Banana Bread. Lunch was the shrimp salad, chased with some snacks of Planters Energy Mix and grapes with a side of string cheese. I was going to have leftovers for dinner but I let the hub eat the chicken and I had cereal.

I checked out a weight lifting DVD at the library today which I’m excited to use this week. I will be sure to give a review!